Title: These Days You Don’t Know How to MarchAuthor: cranberryloops
Pairing: Sherlock/John
Length: 10,341
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: none needed by comm rules
Verse: Sherlock BBC
Author's summary: It's not easy to be Sherlock's. Saved. Owned. Loved. These aren't words John ever thought to associate with himself.
Reccer's comments: This is the kind of love story where one or both parties are desperate and damaged but find stability in each other. In this case, John is the more obviously damaged one, floundering after his return from Afghanistan, in search of a place to emotionally and physically belong. Cranberryloops’ dom Sherlock is compelling too, sharp and abstract and palpably devoted to John.
John is sent back to Afghanistan for part of the story, so he gets to keep that side of himself, and reconcile it with his increasing attachment to Sherlock. The story as a whole charts John’s progress as he (re)learns to be all his apparently contradictory selves, and it explores how, in a tenable BDSM relationship as in any other, responsibility goes both ways.
One of my favourite things about Sherlock fandom is the volume of thinky BDSM fic and IMO this is one of the best. It’s not extensively and graphically sexual, but the entire thing is suffused with sexuality and need. Many of the sex scenes are just beautiful, suggestive, one-line vignettes, and everything that happens is fully plugged in to the characters’ complex, entirely real psychologies. Nothing is simple, John Watson, even if you think you are.
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